day 4

today is tuesday. i dislike tuesdays.

have you met someone and became friends or even more than friends and catch yourself wondering what you ever did without them? i have. why am i blogging about it? who knows. maybe these people need recognition. maybe i'm in an i love people mood today. maybe i don't have anything else to write about.

my life has changed recently. over that past nine months something has happened. i cant quite explain what or even how it happened but it did. the frown line on my forehead is disappearing and there is this weird muscle movement happening with my mouth all the time. people often call it a smile. i'm unsure.

i guess it started when i got rid of the life sucking ex. i had nobody to cook for, nobody to clean up after, nobody to pretend to be in love with, nobody to lie to about who i had/was sleeping with and nobody to constantly fight with. life got pleasent from that day forward. these 'smiles' began to appear and i guess you could say i was happy. my only mistake was not making it happen earlier but to learn a valuable lesson in life, it has to be done the hard way.

from there i met another guy. he was completely different to what i was used to. ladies, if you believe chivalry is dead.. you haven't met this person. he was generous, he was funny and he could hold an adult conversation. he was perfect. he called when he said he was going to, he listened to my endless rants on whatever was on my mind - agreeing regardless of whether he actually did or not, he introduced me to good beer, good food and better music. he was mysterious, he was adorable and he still is. i don't think i've ever felt this way about another human being before and it's somewhat intimidating knowing that he could pack up and leave tomorrow.. it's a chance i'm willing to take though.

he has since introduced me to a number of people. most of whom are wonderful people. and i now consider them friends of my own.

two of these people, in particular have really stood out. she is a stunningly gorgeous and he is funny and charasmatic. i haven't known them forever, in fact i've only been friends with them for three or four months but i don't remember life without them.

there are another two people that have recently appeared in my life. both are piss-your-pants funny who genuinely care about their friends. i see them on a daily basis and can't imagine ever getting sick of them. they use my soap and i'm okay with it.

i suppose the reason for these words is because i'm confused. why? because i can't understand how five people i've known for what feels like a matter of minutes can mean so much to me. i guess it goes to show that if you rid yourself of the shit, good things will come your way. or maybe it was luck. or maybe i have no goddamn idea why any of this has happened. 

to the five of you, thank you. 

xx